Gio - My Life as a Multiple #27
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Gio is one of Mel's alters. His full name is Arpeggio but he goes by Gio. I don't personally know much about Gio so I'm listening to Mel right now. Mel is co-present with me and talking to me in my mind. I know it's not me talking because I have my own inner dialogue and Mel is a separate person talking to me.
Mel describes Gio as steady, sure, a thinker. He is prone to overthinking at times. Gio designed his own picture. He chose a series of pictures to describe himself because he didn't feel he could show himself with only one picture. This attention to detail is a major facet of Gio.
Gio sort of looks like Mel's first husband who she was drawn to because he had Gio's strong facial features. She thought she could depend on her husband because he always seemed to know the right thing to do. This later turned into him becoming controlling and domineering and abusive and she had to divorce him once she could get away.
Gio is nothing like that. He is kind but he can be depended on. Gio comes out when decisions have to be made. He is the decision-maker, the one we all lean to. Mel's male alters all seem to have this inner strength in them.
When we feel weak, they are strong. Gio is a protector in Mel's system. He protects both Mel's system and mine when it is necessary. The males in my system are more easy-going. They might protect but it doesn't come with as much thought as it does in Mel's system. We all listen when Gio speaks. I can only access him through Mel. Mel can call on Gio at any time. He is always there, ready to help her make a difficult decision.Mel gets us through life. She is the face of our systems and the first one people meet. Mel's alters are strong like she is. My system always feels weak and in many ways sad. I think my system holds the emotions. Mel's system can be emotionless when something needs to be done. And none of the alters in Mel's system are suicidal or maudlin. They are intelligent, strong, deliberate, ruthless when needed and deep thinkers. We have access to this network through Mel and it has been so valuable to us. People describe me as brave, strong, but I don't feel any of that. Gio is brave and strong. He is where the strength comes from. Gio just knows what we are going to do and always has a plan. Sometimes more than one.
I hope I have done a good job describing Gio. Thank you for reading, sweet reader. We all hope you have a good day today. I'm grateful for your "hearts" and comments on my blog. To me, a heart just means you support me. So thank you.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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Dear Nikki, I hope you are feeling well and in control today my dear friend. Mel and Gio sound very strong and reliable. I am so glad you have them to rely on. I love reading your blog and thank you again for opening yourself up - it cannot be an easy thing to do! I am so very tired and keep making simple spelling mistakes as it is now 4.00 am in Melbourne, Australia. I just wanted to let you know I did a set for Jesse @darkprince could you please let him know dear Nikki. It is time for me to sleep I think. I sent him a PM but he may miss that. Anyway I hope you both like it. I think you are both totally amazing and inspirational. Especially you dear friend. As usual this is beautifully written and the Art is perfection. Have a wonderful day ahead. lots of love and Goodnight Dianne xooxoxoxoxox Big hugs and flying kisses sweet Nikki xoxoxox
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Without Gio's strength, I don't think the systems could survive. We all appreciate his ability to take control of stressful situations and make the right decisions under pressure. Great entry, Darling!
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@diannec Thank you very much for the set. I will go look right now. You're too kind!
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Geo seems exotic, a quiet soul, but probably very wise. I have grown to love this built in family (alters). With hugs sweetie!
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@diannec You must be psychic because we have been feeling a little out of sorts today! I think part of it is because Jesse and I have a friend from Sweden coming to visit us and our systems get worried when we meet new people. But we are excited too. Jesse and I are so grateful for the set you made us. It was so sweet and kind of you to do such a nice thing. We both want to make a set for you, now! Thank you for your friendship and support. It really does mean so much to us!!!
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@darkprince Thank you for adding that, Darling! You know so much about us! I love you.
Nikki xoxo
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@sjlew Thank you for your very sweet comment! I think I love my little family that is always with me. I'm never too lonely inside myself but externally it can be hard to make and keep friends as most people don't want to deal with the different personalities. If they stick around long enough, they get to know them. Then it is an easy thing. You are so special to us!!! Thank you again and again!!!
Hugs, Nikki xx
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Dear Nikki, Since Mel is your outfront system and she is the one you said went to college and was a teacher and now you said she was married to an abusive man. You also did all this right? Only you were sleeping through it, as you say. I hope for your sake you don't remember the abuse of her spouse. I've been there and it's not something you ever forget. It can make you a stronger person, but you never forget what you went thru, so I feel for Mel and what she had to deal with. I feel like I can relate to several of both yours and Jesse alters just because of some of similar life experiences, I understand why ya'lls alters work. I fortunately didn't have the young traumatic experiences, I had some when I was older and able to comprehend and deal with them, but definitely can see why ya'll needed help getting thru yours. I'm so glad you've shared this experience with us, just getting to know you and your alters has been so enlighting and I feel a strong connection to you. A sweet friendship. Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@rboowybe You have it all right, about Mel, sweet friend! I don't know how you all keep it all straight! Haha. It's hard enough for me. But I am dealing with memory issues and dissociative episodes. No, I don't remember the abuse Mel suffered and her whole system. It must have taken a lot of courage for her to get out of that abusive mess. It must have taken lots of courage for you to get out of it too, Rhana. I'm so sorry that happened to you. Mel has told me things that happened so I do have a chronology when people talk to me but no I don't have any firsthand memories of it. He was not a nice man, however. I guess they never are. Thank you so much for your comment and for sharing part of your life with us. It means so much!!!
Hugs, Nikki xoxo
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Thank you for posting this blog! It's interesting how some of your alters have their own alters. But it's a bit complicated. So, thank you for making posts about each of them, so we can find the info about them if we forgot. Gio is a cool guy! Have a wonderful weekend! Hugs, Asya
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@asia-12 Hi Asya! Thank you so much for your comment! Only one of my alters has her own system and that’s Mel. It is complicated. But it’s how Polyfragmented DID works. Thank you so much for trying to understand. I majored in psychology in College just to try to understand it all. Or rather Mel majored in College since I was asleep. But Mel has shared her knowledge with me. It helps sometimes. You are a dear one and yes Gio is a great guy. Very dependable.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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Always ten steps ahead! Ah, how I love that! Gio is the light in the darkness--a person of unparalleled strength.
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@sonofmorning Gio is the oak tree inside of Mel that makes us able to withstand the blows of life. Thank you for your insightful comment. You bring clarity as usual. Hugs and love,
Nikki xoxo