@shelley-harcar OMG, Sister! I totally get you. Offline issues have held me captive, so to speak, and unable to participate here as often as I'd like for a long time now. I am ALWAYS behind on Thank-Yous and I miss contests; creating for them and running those in our Twisted Gypsies group. It would be wonderful if the reasons for this were because I won BIG in the lottery and was buying/building a home or traveling, but like you, things have fallen under the "unfortunate" category, so I truly understand your stresses all too well.
My prayers for your health, and that you find even better employment. I can understand your feelings about "the hellscape in America". I try to ignore it as much as I can. Every day, it seems, there's something new.
One things I can offer you is to create a pleasurable bedtime routine or ritual. No TV or internet after a certain time. Take a shower before bed (You'll sleep better.) Towel dry your hair and wrap it in a skull cap if needed, but just let it dry on it's own. You can fix it in the morning. Before going to sleep, slather on some lovely smelling body and hand lotions with scents that are calmative. If you have a portable music player (not a cell phone), put some meditative music on it, or a pink-noise meditation, or something soothing and peaceful. Maybe enjoy a cup of tea before this, or some other beverage that you love and will not keep you awake. Count your blessings as you listen to the music, or remind yourself of three good things that happened that day. They don't have to be hugely-good. It could simply be that you took care of yourself, that you took a long bath, and that you have your pooch to love and to love you.
@Laughingdog is so right about balance, and during the times life is off-balance, we may not have control over much of it, but we can control how we respond to it, even if that includes crying in frustration, stressing out, and shutting down. I get it. Then, follow that with some self-TLC to "dilute" all that stress.
Wishing you the VERY best.
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