Life During Covid-19
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It's been awhile since I decided to write a post. I guess because I didn't want to seem boring. I'm in a better place right now. I'm still up in the middle of the night but that is just normal for me. When we first had to be quarantined, it was so upsetting to my system that I had to get off Urstyle. I was pretty crazy in my head and I didn't want to say anything wrong to people. So many of my alters have their own feelings. Some are angry and some are fearful and some are just trying to hold the whole thing together. Mel and her system have been a great help. She has many angels that surround her. Pax and Killeen have been so helpful. They are caregivers and healers.
Missy, my daughter, is doing well and has healed from her surgery. She has had to put up with a lot during this quarantine. Angel seems to be her nemesis. She is young and this drives Missy nuts. Missy has needed me to be myself--Nikki during this quarantine as we have been involved with many projects on our house. We installed solar and had our house painted and re-stuccoed. It looks beautiful and I think the workmen are basically done now. At least I hope so.
When the workmen pound and scrape on the walls, Angel becomes convinced that we have rats in the walls. Rats terrify her and she screams and hides under the covers. Some of my voices like Caine, just scream to make it stop. There are many of us in here and everyone has an opinion.
Jesse has been my rock. His strength and love have seen me through this whole thing. Most of my system is scared we will get Covid-19. We take all the precautions and wear a mask when we go out which is only to doctor visits. Jesse has some health problems going on right now that has us worried. We would appreciate prayers and healing energy for him.
We are hopeful the quarantine will lift soon and also scared. This whole pandemic thing has us worried about ever going out again. I'm sure the world will return to normal one day soon and we hope for that day as I'm sure you all do as well.
Thank you for reading this long entry. You are all very dear to me. Your comments on sets and this blog are so appreciated. You don't know how much it helps us to know you're there and that you wish us well. Thank you, sweet reader.
Love and hugs, Nikki xoxo
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Darling, I do think the workers are done for now. You're safe. This is a beautiful entry that gives us a glimpse into that beautiful mind of yours. Keep writing and creating. Llve you xoxo
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I can understand the assorted emotions you felt when COVID19 reared it's ugly head. We all felt, and still feel, out of sorts. Good for you on practicing Self Care and doing what you knew you needed to do in order to process everything. Know that you have support here, and that also, you don't have to SAY anything. Just create. Let your mind, your soul, release the stresses by using art as therapy. Anything that calms you and eases your mind (provided it's legal and harmless, ha ha!) is a good thing, especially in times like these. You are not alone, and I do not mean that as a punny comment about your DDI. We're all dealing with this; differently perhaps, but we're all dealing with this.
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Sweetie, glad you are back, hope this is therapeutic for you writing again. This has been such a life changing problems and much much more for you and Jesse, you you are in our prayers and blessing sent to all of you. Now the work being finished on your home you will enjoy it. Hope your alters, the frightent ones will settle back now that the hammering and scraping are done. So good to see you back, so missed you. Jesse extra blessings too for your health, all this added stress makes symptoms flare on top of everything else. Happy mother's day Nikki, sending all love and hugs!
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I can understand your feeling the need to take personal space, I too havn taken time away from Urstyle, which btw I love, but it is also good to step back and to be completely present...Prayers and healing light to your Jesse...Blessings to you and yours Nikki.