Sirena - My Life as a Multiple #36
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Sirena is one of Mel's alters from her system. As usual, I don't know much about Sirena and I will have to listen to Mel as she explains who she is and what she does. Mel is co-present with me as I write.
Sirena is a spiritual alter in a more bohemian sense. She is clairvoyant and often predicts or just knows the future. She is able to read tarot cards. We often use her when we need to know the future or which direction we should take.
Sirena is a very sweet soul and never does harm to anyone. She is protected by Mel's other alters because she is so sweet and kind. Mel says she was born during the nervous breakdown when many alters were born. This was just after the time when the man held the gun on us. Maybe in some way we felt the need to have someone to predict our future because so many bad things had happened to us and those things had seemed so unpredictable and frightening.
It's been a while since we have written a blog entry because we have had some memories resurfacing and this has caused an instability in our system. We saw our therapist and he increased our medication and made some adjustments and this has helped with the stress and with the switching. We are calming down now. It's not easy having so much going on in our mind. We weren't sleeping for awhile but we are better now.
We took a nice drive a few days ago and visited the California Mission San Luis Rey which is near our home and drove to the ocean. It was so nice to get out and seeing the ocean always grounds us and makes us all feel better.
Thank you so much for reading sweet reader. It means more than I can say. We all love your comments and questions and your "hearts" on our blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Hugs and love, Nikki xx
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Beautiful image and entry, Darling. When you say you needed someone to predict your future because it had been so frightening up to that point, it really tugs at the heartstrings. You have been through so much it's incredible. I love you xoxo
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Oh sweetie, when I first saw her, before reading your blog, I thought she looks like a goddess.I love this sweet gentle lady. I know this sounds off the wall, but it is almost like someone from the other side ( heaven or another realm ) is also coming through, I wonder if some of these gentle souls are not just in your mind in time of stress, but are actually spirit guides or angels protecting you also. Perhaps you can feel or gifted to notice these protectors, where most of us can't. Glad you went to the ocean, the ocean feels magical, I live in the Rockie Mountain region so the trips to the ocean was magical for me, you have a lovely weekend coming, hugs and blessings!
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@darkprince Ah baby, that was so sweet of you to say. I know I’ve been through so much and I’m hoping and praying all the bad stuff is over. I love you and I’m so grateful you love me. Everyday, baby, I thank God for you. Love and kisses, Nikki xoxo
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@sjlew Thank you so much for your comment. And after reading what you wrote, I really had to think about it. And Mel and her whole system are so much different than my system. They feel like they are separate from me and not part of me. So you may be right. Maybe I can access other heavenly beings who lead and guide me. Maybe they feel like alters because it’s all I know. I’m so grateful for your comment and for your insight. I feel like you are an angel sent to me too. Hugs tight. Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 I wonder if there is a combination, some alters, some guides and maybe Mel is intuitive or gifted at communicating somehow with the beyond!
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@sjlew Maybe you are right! That’s a kind of cool thought! Hugs, Nikki xx
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Sweetie, I was afraid that may happen to you, that all this writing may bring back bad memories. I haven't been getting on too much myself, but had noticed your abcense too. I do hope things are getting better for you. You have been thru so much, I truly hope this blog is therapeutic for you and doesn't upset your balance again! Love and Hugs, Rhana
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@rboowybe I know, Rhana, I mean I knew it might bring up bad memories and upset my balance some but there have been so many good things that have come from writing. One is that I don’t feel as lonely. I have made some wonderful friends that mean the world to me. I have learned new things about my alters and about who helps me do the things I do every day. That has been so valuable to me. I can take a few bad memories. My doctor feels I’m doing pretty well all things considered. Jesse doesn’t think it’s a bad thing. In fact, he started doing it too. I’m so tremendously grateful for your comments and your thoughts. It always makes me think and consider things. Hugging you tight. Love and hugs, Nikki xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 I'm glad you're getting so much positive from it it makes the bad memories worth it in the end, if you get all the positive and it helps you! Keep it up! Love, Rhana