Rydell - My Life as a Multiple #29
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Rydell is an alter from Mel's system. She is helping me write about him. I don't know much about him but I do know he has a piercing look when he looks at you. He is not someone to be messed with.Mel describes hims as a very bad boy. Rydell is a fighter, both physically and verbally. Mel is not a fighter. She is very much the proper lady but Rydell has been known to pick up furniture and throw it across the room. So he is very strong and we have no idea where this strength comes from. Maybe from anger.
Mel says Rydell was born after a particularly bad beating by her first husband. After Rydell was born, there were no more physical altercations only verbal because Rydell took care of it. When he speaks, people are definitely hurt by his words. Rydell does not have anything good to say and has to be kept inside these days or he would deeply hurt someone. He had his function during her first marriage and now isn't needed so much.
Jesse hasn't met very many of Mel's alters because they are pretty quiet these days. He has assured them all he loves them and would be willing to listen if they have something to say. Most don't come out. I think most of Mel's alters are meaner and were needed to help her deal with a very bad relationship and the many obstacles she had to face with carrying on with life. Some of Mel's female alters still help her with things but most of the males stay in the back.
Mel has to be in charge of the body for her to be able to use any of her alters. Then she has access to her system. Most people just see Mel and don't realize she is calling on her alters to help her. If I meet new people or go to the doctor, I still put Mel out front because she has so much more experience with people and she always puts a good face on us. People like Mel. I'm trying to get more comfortable with handling my life but I don't feel strong yet. I still rely on Mel and her group of alters to help me. I get terrible anxiety when things go wrong. Even little things that wouldn't bother most people.
Thank you for reading, sweet reader. You are such a trooper to keep reading the blogs. It means a lot to know you are there. Thank you for your comments, questions and "hearts" on the blog. It means so much to us.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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Darling, even though Rydell was made to be the fighter, I still love him as you love Jared. Anger comes from pain, and I'm sure Mel has seen her share of it. I love you, Mel and all the others inbetween xoxo
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@darkprince You are so right, darling! Mel has seen her share of pain. We kind of jumped out of the frying pan and into the fire, so to speak. Life was not more wonderful after leaving home. It didn't get more wonderful until we found you!!! Thank you so much for your support and most of all for your love. I love you!
Love, Nikki xoxo
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Mal needed Rydell to protect her from he vicious ex, in fact Rydell may have saved her life as women leaving abusers is the most dangerous time, the coward ex did not want to fight a strong man as Mel did not have the strength to defend her self. I have no respect for abusers. They leaves psychic scars long after the physical punches heal. Glad Rydell stays back hidden, but there if Mel ever needs to call on him. Sending hugs sweetie. Thankful Jesse is real and not an alter!
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@sjlew I am grateful every day for Jesse. I don’t know what he sees in me or why he stays. I’m just a messed up girl. We are also so glad for Rydell. It is nice to know he is there. Jesse knows him but not in a bad way. Thank you so much for your comment. It means so much to us! I don’t even know who is still reading the blog at this point. But I’m grateful to whoever is. You, sweet @sjlew, are so dear and so faithful to us. Thank you so much. You mean the world to us. Love and hugs,
Nikki xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 I imagine your friends are still reading sweetie, they are probably tongue tied. Having alters is not something we encounter everyday, it is quite rare and hard for any of us to relate, you and Jesse are educating us, hugs!
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I understand Mel's need for Rydell. Maybe if I had a Rydell I would have left my ex sooner or beat the crap out of him, which would have been much more satisfactory! Although I did get a good lick in sometimes, of course Mel would probably know that only makes it worse. I'm glad she still has him in the back in case she ever needs him, you just never know in this world any more. My husband is very protective of me, so I feel like I now have a Rydell just without the meaness. My grown son is very protective of me too so I am doubly blessed. He was protective of me even as a little boy, when men would stare at me, like if we were at the mall, at 7 yrs old he'd tell grown men not to be looking at his mom. So I have my protectors too. We all need them and take them whatever way we can get them. I have a lot of anxiety too, so I don't blame you for still putting Mel out front. I wish I could have my husband home with me all the time, but he works. Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@rboowybe I think with my ex, he just didn’t know Rydell was in there. He was a big coward so I think it made him reevaluate whether or not he wanted to tangle with us. Rydell is ruthless. He once ran his car into my ex’s car in a parking lot just to make the point he wasn’t scared of him. I’m so sorry for all you’ve gone through Rhana, and all you are still going through but thank God you have your husband and son to be with you, loving you. We are both blessed. Thank you for your sweet comment. Hugs to you, my dear friend!
Hugs and love, Nikki xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 If my first husband taught me anything it was that men that hit women are cowards, ALL men that hit women are cowards. Most men that hit women can't defend themselves against another man, my ex couldn't. When I started to figure that out, I got brave enough to leave. Course he came and found me and tried to choke the life out of me, but other real men saved me. After that, I was like Rydell not scared of him any more! Rhana xo
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You'll find a function for Rydell, I just know it! Dia is destructive and difficult, but she loves Rydell without question. There's more to him than just his rough exterior!
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@rboowybe Rhana, you are just my hero. You have been through so much! You are very right about men who hit women. And my ex was in the military. You’d think he would have been brave. But no. Thank you so much for your comment and I’m sorry it took so long for me to respond. Nothing alerts me to comments. You are so dear to me. Hugs and love,
Nikki xoxo
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@sonofmorning I will be delighted to find out more about Rydell. Mel is tight-lipped. Thank you so much for your comment though. It means so much. Hugs and love,
Nikki xoxo