Emberly - My Life as a Multiple #25
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@funkyjunkygypsy I'm not offended at all. You're making me think. Part of me says yes to be rid of this illness would be so much easier but part of me asks if I would know how to live without my alters who help me so much? Jesse would have to take the pill too or else his alters would miss mine too much. But it is hard to imagine life without my alters. I depend on them, I have learned to work with them. If you had asked this same question when we were in crisis, I would say without a doubt yes! Give me the pill. It was a terrible time and it was so hard. But at this point in my life, we have been through so much together, they are like my friends and it would be hard to live any other way. It's almost like you are asking, if you could live without part of your mind, would you do it? I worry about the future a lot and hope I don't get senile when I am older and so messing with my mind would probably scare me. I would say if I could take the pill when I was younger, I would probably have said yes. It's a complex question and I hope I gave you an adequate answer.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 I completely understand your answer to @FunkyJunkyGypsy. Being what I affectionally call myself a "mental case" having gone thru periods of being off my meds and right back on my meds is scarey and I'm being asked right now to choose between my physical pain and my mental health because of all the medication I am on. It's a choice I shouldn't have to make and will be having a meeting with my pain doctor to voice my disapproval. Messing with someone's mental state is not something to take lightly and when you finally get to a balance as you have, you're comfortable as I am. Now I have one dr trying to take my comfort away. My psychiatrist stands with me, thank goodness. I just tell you this because it's my way I understand your answer, because of what I'm dealing with right now. Not to say it's anything like having alters, just the anxiety/panic part. Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@rboowybe Thank you, Rhana! That is a terrible choice they are forcing you into. I'm so sorry. Thank you for always trying to understand us. I do appreciate it so much!!! Now I'm gonna be worried for you. I'm such an anxious mess. It's ok. I will be ok. I hope you are!!! Hugging you.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 Don't worry about me, I'm a very persistant person and I have a way about me. I do what I'm suppose to and don't mess around and I expect to be treated with respect as a person and a patient. I unfortunately have a lot of experience being a patient with my health problems (started at 23) and I took their crap when I was young, but I know my rights and what is ethical and what is not. If I was doing something wrong they'd have a leg to stand on, but I'm not so he just needs to learn to stand up for his patient. These people that go out and play with medicine and overdose is what is causing the problem for people like me and other pain patients. We shouldn't be punished because other people like to get high on meds. We use our meds properly and are tested regularly. I will be okay! I'm a fighter! Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 I had a feeling you would not want to live without them at this point. Thanks for considering the question!
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Oh sweetie, she is gorgeous, you said the abuse stopped when she came, perhaps she threatened the abuser, and scared them in to stopping, good for her! About funky's question, it would be a miracle, but I imagine you would miss these alters that are part of you, your protectors, they have come for your survival and as odd as it sounds I imagine there is comfort knowing you can depend on them when needed, hugs sweetie!
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@sjlew Yes, I think Emberly did stop the abuse. She is like that. She doesn't take anything off of anyone. This can be a problem when I'm trying to be tactful with someone and Emberly comes out and says exactly what she feels with no filter. But Em had her function and still does sometimes. She's full of fire like her name suggests. Thank you so much for your insightful comment. It means so much!!! Have a lovely weekend!!
Hugs, Nikki xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 You have a wonderful weekend too.
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I think you created the right set to show us who Emberly is. And I agree with her on the knowledge, she is right. Anyway, thank you and her for letting us to get to know her a bit better.
P.S. I'm sorry for being behind. I'm not spending much time on here anymore, but I hope I will come to read your blogs. Have a wonderful time, Nikki! Hugs, Asya
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@asia-12 It’s ok about you being behind on reading the blogs. I know I write a lot of them. I’m sorry you aren’t on Urstyle as much! There are many things they need to fix. I’m hoping you hang in there. I would miss you so much if you left, Asya! Emberly appreciates your comment very much! I am so grateful for your friendship!
Hugs, Nikki xx
