Emberly - My Life as a Multiple #25
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Emberly is the fighter. She will yell and hit people with her fists if provoked enough. Emberly is with Jesse's very vocal fighter, Jared. Emberly and Jared together is explosive. They have had some very intense fights. However, there is so much love between her and Jared, they are quick to make up and get back to just loving each other. However, when they are fighting, everyone in the house gets out of their way.
Emberly loves rock music which is very different than the alternative sound I usually prefer. Emberly likes "The Pretty Reckless" and "Kings of Leon," and that type of music. She, like most of my alters, is a protector but more than that, she actually fights the battles that I don't feel I can fight.
She was born later in our young life so she is an older alter. I'm not exactly sure what happened that made her emerge. Just one day, she was there and I could suddenly fight my own battles and no one pushed me around anymore. Things in my life changed and the abuse stopped. Probably because of something Emberly said and the way she said it.
When Emberly gets us dressed, we usually wear a lot of make up and wear a whole lot more black. She made her own picture for this blog entry because that is just how Emberly is--she does everything herself. She doesn't depend on anyone for anything. Emberly does not like to see us get taken advantage of. She will speak right up and it's not usually pretty.
Emberly was never allowed out when we worked because she would not be quiet. She would speak her mind and would never speak in a politically correct way. She doesn't have any tact. She can be naughty but Jared has a way of calming her and getting her to do the right thing unless he is in agreement with her bad behavior and then Jesse and I have problems wrestling them (Emberly and Jared) from the front and pushing them back inside.
I thank you for reading, sweet reader. I don't know anything else to say about Emberly. Maybe because she doesn't like to have a lot known about herself. Emberly believes that knowledge is power. If people know things about her, she feels it will give them power over her and she doesn't let anyone have power over her anymore.
Thank you for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!! As always, your comments and hearts are very welcome on my blog!!!
Hugs, Nikki xx
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It's a beautiful picture and I'm so blessed to know and love Emberly as I do. She is the fire inside you that can't be put out by anything and you need that. Excellent entry, Darling xoxo
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@darkprince Thank you, darling!!! xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 I'm sure you need her for a very good reason! It's a good thing to have a little fire inside of us all! Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@rboowybe You are so right!!! I think she served her purpose but now she's there just in case I need her. Thank you so much for your comment!!!
Hugs, Nikki xx
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I’m going to hit you with a question that is not intended to be offensive AT ALL. It’s purely hypothetical.
Imagine, tomorrow, a medication is announced as the “cure” for DID. It has been thoroughly tested, is perfectly safe, no side effects. Those with DID volunteered during the testing phase and every one of them were brought back to brain-balance with just one dose. One little pink pill. Take it once and rid yourself of this “mental illness” forever. Would you take it?
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@funkyjunkygypsy I'm not offended at all. You're making me think. Part of me says yes to be rid of this illness would be so much easier but part of me asks if I would know how to live without my alters who help me so much? Jesse would have to take the pill too or else his alters would miss mine too much. But it is hard to imagine life without my alters. I depend on them, I have learned to work with them. If you had asked this same question when we were in crisis, I would say without a doubt yes! Give me the pill. It was a terrible time and it was so hard. But at this point in my life, we have been through so much together, they are like my friends and it would be hard to live any other way. It's almost like you are asking, if you could live without part of your mind, would you do it? I worry about the future a lot and hope I don't get senile when I am older and so messing with my mind would probably scare me. I would say if I could take the pill when I was younger, I would probably have said yes. It's a complex question and I hope I gave you an adequate answer.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 I completely understand your answer to @FunkyJunkyGypsy. Being what I affectionally call myself a "mental case" having gone thru periods of being off my meds and right back on my meds is scarey and I'm being asked right now to choose between my physical pain and my mental health because of all the medication I am on. It's a choice I shouldn't have to make and will be having a meeting with my pain doctor to voice my disapproval. Messing with someone's mental state is not something to take lightly and when you finally get to a balance as you have, you're comfortable as I am. Now I have one dr trying to take my comfort away. My psychiatrist stands with me, thank goodness. I just tell you this because it's my way I understand your answer, because of what I'm dealing with right now. Not to say it's anything like having alters, just the anxiety/panic part. Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@rboowybe Thank you, Rhana! That is a terrible choice they are forcing you into. I'm so sorry. Thank you for always trying to understand us. I do appreciate it so much!!! Now I'm gonna be worried for you. I'm such an anxious mess. It's ok. I will be ok. I hope you are!!! Hugging you.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 Don't worry about me, I'm a very persistant person and I have a way about me. I do what I'm suppose to and don't mess around and I expect to be treated with respect as a person and a patient. I unfortunately have a lot of experience being a patient with my health problems (started at 23) and I took their crap when I was young, but I know my rights and what is ethical and what is not. If I was doing something wrong they'd have a leg to stand on, but I'm not so he just needs to learn to stand up for his patient. These people that go out and play with medicine and overdose is what is causing the problem for people like me and other pain patients. We shouldn't be punished because other people like to get high on meds. We use our meds properly and are tested regularly. I will be okay! I'm a fighter! Hugs, Rhana xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 I had a feeling you would not want to live without them at this point. Thanks for considering the question!
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Oh sweetie, she is gorgeous, you said the abuse stopped when she came, perhaps she threatened the abuser, and scared them in to stopping, good for her! About funky's question, it would be a miracle, but I imagine you would miss these alters that are part of you, your protectors, they have come for your survival and as odd as it sounds I imagine there is comfort knowing you can depend on them when needed, hugs sweetie!
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@sjlew Yes, I think Emberly did stop the abuse. She is like that. She doesn't take anything off of anyone. This can be a problem when I'm trying to be tactful with someone and Emberly comes out and says exactly what she feels with no filter. But Em had her function and still does sometimes. She's full of fire like her name suggests. Thank you so much for your insightful comment. It means so much!!! Have a lovely weekend!!
Hugs, Nikki xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 You have a wonderful weekend too.
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I think you created the right set to show us who Emberly is. And I agree with her on the knowledge, she is right. Anyway, thank you and her for letting us to get to know her a bit better.
P.S. I'm sorry for being behind. I'm not spending much time on here anymore, but I hope I will come to read your blogs. Have a wonderful time, Nikki! Hugs, Asya
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@asia-12 It’s ok about you being behind on reading the blogs. I know I write a lot of them. I’m sorry you aren’t on Urstyle as much! There are many things they need to fix. I’m hoping you hang in there. I would miss you so much if you left, Asya! Emberly appreciates your comment very much! I am so grateful for your friendship!
Hugs, Nikki xx
