Skye and Mia - My Life as a Multiple #24
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Skye is a baby boy. He has grown a bit into a toddler now. He is with Jesse's alter Aos who is also small. Mia is a toddler girl of around 4 or 5. She is with Jesse's alter Eon, who is also very young. The babies speak in whispers of memories to me. They only know a few things and share images with me.
Skye likes to suck his thumb although he has grown out of this a bit now. This used to be how we got to sleep. Jesse says I still speak in my sleep and sometimes he can see it's Skye or Mia.
How did they come to be created? Neglect and leaving raising me to other children in the family who didn't know how to take care of a baby. There was a lot of scaring me and just leaving me to myself. My mother did not want to be a mother anymore when we were born. This was a fact that has been stated by my oldest sibling. It is sad because the babies are just wanting to be loved and nurtured. That is always what they are looking for.
They are always hungry and always lonely. So this speaks to me of being left unfed at times and not having anyone take care of you. We did have one babysitter in our babyhood that we can remember who was an adult. But we believe this was only for a short time as there are many more memories of being left in our baby bed and not cared for for long periods of time.
Our father was an alcoholic and our mother may have been a paranoid schizophrenic. At least that is what one of our therapists thought due to my mother's obsessive thoughts and actions towards us. I don't want to sound like a movie here but our mother was crazy. She lived in a world of denial and just did her own thing whatever that might be. She did a myriad of things to us but I'm not sure I want to put that all right out here since it is rather personal.
Today, the other alters comfort the babies and take care of them. Ame loves to take care of the babies and to soothe them. Mira wants to play music for them. Falen protects them like an elephant standing in the way. No one hurts them today. Jesse is very good and gentle if they emerge. I am thankful every day for him.
Thank you for reading, sweet reader. Your support means so much to us. Thank you for your hearts on the blog and for commenting whenever you feel you have something to say. It means so much to us. YOU mean so much to us.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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Great blog post, Darling. I'm here for you, as always xoxo
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@darkprince Thank you, Baby!!!
Nikki xoxo
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This made me cry, I can't stand that you didn't get the love, affection or just basic needs of a baby. As I told Jesse I have 3 pet peeves you never ever hurt children in anyway, elderly or animals it brings out the protective beast in me. Neglect is just as much abuse to me as hitting. I can't imagine a baby not being held and comforted by anyone let alone their mother. I was so in love with my baby boy I kissed and hugged him all the time. He's 26 yrs old and still kisses his mom, that's how it should be. I don't have that kind of relationship with my parents but I was bound and determined to be close to my son. I just want to hug you and the little ones and tell you all it's going to be okay. I'm younger than you are, but because of what you've been thru I feel so protective of you! Big Hugs!!!! Rhana xoxo
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@rboowybe It's true that all babies and children should receive the love and attention they so deserve. I think it made me a more caring parent as I never let my children do without anything. I raised some pretty spoiled kids but I would rather that than what happened to me. I remember being suicidal by the time I was 5. My sister who was nearest to me in age said she could see a noticeable change in me at that age as I broke a part but my parents didn't see it or do anything about it and I have never understood this either. It's just sad. I'm so grateful for your comment and for your sweet heart. It means the world to us to know people like you are out there.
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 My son is an only child because of my health problems and he's very spoiled, but I didn't and still don't care. When they're growing up they should be spoiled, that is the only time in their lives they can truly be carefree and if they are spoiled so what, when they grow up they have to liive in a world that is not always so kind. They have to work hard every day, so when they are little that's the only time we can really spoil them. We are fortunate enough to be able to help my son if he ever needs it, but he has a very good job and has done well for himself. I'm very proud of him.
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@rboowybe You have every reason to be proud of your son! I agree with everything you said.
Hugs, Nikki xx