Stefan - My Life as a Multiple #16
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Stefan is one of my most interesting alters. He is Native American. He is the only alter that is Native and he chooses to speak in the Lakota language. Stefan is with Jesse's alter, Judah, or Jude as we call him. Stefan is very spiritual in a Native American way. He grounds us to nature and has always been one reason why we love the desert and its stillness. Stefan will occasionally use white sage to smudge the house, freeing it from negativity. He leaves offerings of tobacco to trees when we take nature walks. He reminds us to be thankful for all things.
Stefan's job in the system is to protect the system. Some alters protect the body, but Stefan protects the inner system from harm. He is very serious and steadfast. All my alters look to him for guidance about safety and even about spiritual things. While Angel participates in a faith-based spirituality, Stefan participates in a Native American theology and has studied this extensively. For many years, we participated in the Ramona Pageant in our current hometown and we played an Indian very convincingly. This was Stefan. He really enjoyed being among the Native Americans and part of their celebrations.
In case you are wondering, yes we are part Native American but my mother always said we were Cherokee. I did some research on the Lakota because I wondered why Stefan chose that tribe. It turns out there is a link to where my mother was from and the migration of the Lakota so it is possible we are part Lakota. The soul knows what the soul knows. Maybe Stefan found his people.
I did some thinking and realized that my system works in layers. There is an inner core and then layers coming out from that. It is much like the layers of an atom. Some alters are closer to the surface and some rarely come out or speak. Some only come out in response to something. For instance, if we are emotionally hurt, Oblivia comes out and shuts down the whole system by sleeping for example. Stefan will help her and we can sometimes work through the depression and wake her up. Then she retreats back inside to wait for another day.
I did some real thinking today to try to figure out how we work. As I try to write about it in the blog, I look for visual representations of how we work so others can understand. I realized that this scientific model was very much how it feels that we are.
Thank you, sweet reader for trying to understand and just for reading the blog. I hope to build understanding and make what feels so crazy at times, something you can relate to. I am starting to realize there is more organization than I think there is.
I hope your day is a good one. Hugs, Nikki xx
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Your chart is interesting and illuminating. I do think I work in a similar fashion: with some alters close to the surface and some only surfacing rarely, if ever. As always, thoughtful writing, Darling xoxo
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Oh sweetie, he is beautiful, I can see why, he looks like an old soul with lots of Wisdom, sort of like a grandfather who watches over his clan. He is very trusting isn't he!
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@darkprince Thank you, darling!!! xoxo
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@sjlew Thank you for your accurate description of Stefan. He is very trustworthy and yes we do look to him and his wise guidance. You are so sweet to comment!
Hugs, Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 Hugs sweetie, my daughter in law is Cherokee on her dad's side. If you ever want to see a wonderful show , it was called We Shall Remain, much history, Stefan would like it maybe. Scroll down, it tells about each episode, I saw this show several years ago on PBS station
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/We_Shall_Remain
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@sjlew Stefan is very interested. I hope they replay it! Thank you for thinking of us. Hugs, Nikki xx
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I like to read your posts, they are truly interesting and allow us to understand more about you and your alters. Thank you for this post! Have a wonderful weekend! Hugs, Asya
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@asia-12 You have a wonderful weekend too!!! Thank you for reading the blog!!!
Hugs, Nikki xx