Angel - My Life as a Multiple #10
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Angel lives in a beautiful world full of fairies, and magic and all sweet and wonderful and magical things. She was created when we were 5. She has grown up a little since we found Jesse. Angel is in love with Jesse's alter, Zyon. She started out with Jesse's alter Jos but Jos and Angel got into a lot of trouble and Jos ended up with our alter, Chase. Angel moved on and she is very stable with Zyon. Zyon is a very spiritual guy and so is Angel. Probably the most spiritual of all my alters. Angel loves angels and The Bible and all other things light and lovely.
Angel was born from a brutal rape by our father at about the age of 5. That's about all I will say about that as it is very painful to dwell on that memory. It is a memory I have and I don't have all the memories. Chase was born at the same time and Chase remained to take the brutality but Angel moved onto a soft and gentle place.
Over the years, Angel has probably been my most troublesome alter. She has been one to jump forward a lot and not at all the best times. If I enter a toy store, Angel is right there and unfortunately she knows how to use credit which can be troublesome. My daughter, Missy has had to wrestle my credit card from her little hands more than once. She also tried to drive the car one time but we caught her before we got out of the driveway.
When we were in crisis, Angel could be destructive but now the only one who is destructive to our body is Oblivia. Oblivia rarely comes out now because we are happy and secure. Angel helps take care of the body now and keeps us in a happy and spiritual place.
Angel has her own profile on Urstyle where she creates her beautiful world. Many of you know her, whether you realize it or not. Angel has given me permission to share her profile name which is @saphirange . She runs her own profile and has her own group where she makes her own choices without any input from me. I know many people may find that hard to believe. But she does not consult me and I am not co-present when she makes her sets or her decisions in her group.
I know some people will think it is all me. That all the profiles are just me in different moods or something but it is not that way. My alters are their own people. They make their own comments and have their own ways of speaking. Sometimes we may be similar in beliefs and sometimes we are miles away from each other. Jesse describes this best and I hope he comments here about alters. He always says his alters have completely different ideas than he does. Sometimes alters are completely opposed to each other. So, don't be surprised if Angel says one thing and it is completely different from me and my thoughts on something. She believes in fairies and unicorns, for instance. I do not think they are real but she does. Don't ask her if she has ever seen a fairy because she will tell you yes she has.
Angel is very fun to take to the movies, because she believes everything she sees on the screen is real. I usually only allow her to see Disney movies and light movies because action films and things like that would scare her.
Life with multiples can be difficult but it is also quite wonderful at times. Angel holds our emotions and when we get emotional, Angel is usually out front. She also regulates our sleep which can be problematic. She puts us to sleep and it used to be with her little stuffed elephant. But she wakes in the middle of the night because she is ever vigilant for danger and danger used to come when we slept. So it's hard for her to stay asleep. I usually find a way to talk her down after she works on her sets and her group on Urstyle.
I love Angel's world and I wish our world were as beautiful a place as the one Angel sees. Life would be perfect.
Thank you for reading, sweet reader. Hugs to you and I hope your day is a wonderful one full of all the things Angel sees every day.
Nikki xx
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How can I say anything you haven't said so well... I do know some of my alters are very angry destructive people while others have their own agenda and can be manipulative to get what they want. Partially this is a factor of the age they experience themselves at, which is very young at times, and partially this is their personality. Not mine, though. I have to be careful, take my medications, and work with myself to keep them in check.
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@darkprince And some of my alters temper your alters since they are in relationships. This has helped immensely too, darling. You do a wonderful job of managing your alters now. I know we had some rocky years but our love has been our saving grace. Thank you for commenting, honey!
Nikki xoxo
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Some of the artwork looks similar and of course they probably would, but I have a question. Do you join each other's contests, and how many of your alters are on Urstyle? Were they on PV also?
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@maisondeforgeron We do join each other's contests but we don't plan to win. Sometimes one of us will choose another one's sets but it is rare. It's actually been a difficult decision because they do see themselves as different people but we have come to the decision that we not choose each other's sets and we just participate to add users to the contest. So, while we do put in sets to each other's contests, they won't usually be winning sets. Yes, my alters did have their own pages on Polyvore and many more had their own pages. Now there is only me, Angel, Mel and @houseofstone. I hope this answers your question.
Nikki xx
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To me it seems Angel makes the most beautiful art. She seems to enjoy having her own space to create. You're doing what is right for yourself, so keep on!
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@sonofmorning What a sweet comment!!! Yes, I agree that Angel makes the most beautiful sets of us all.
Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 Yes, it does. Thanks for letting me know. Have a blessed day!
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Oh sweetie, everyone needs an angel, they are our saving grace, I believe there are angels for real, wish fairies and unicorns were too, how much more gentle this world would be if there were. I think angel you want to keep her.Love and hugs to you and Jesse and you daughters!
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@sjlew I think you're right! I do love Angel and all my alters. Angel is a very special alter though and has been with me for a very long time. Thank you for your very sweet comment! Hugs to you too!!! Have a wonderful evening!
Nikki xx
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@surfergirl3915 Thank you sweetie!
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Thank you for the beautiful story of Angel. We all need an Angel to watch over us, I actually believe in my faith we have one. I am very sorry for what happen to you when you were 5 and that is all I wanted to say about that. You're truly a special person! Rhana
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@rboowybe Thank you so much, Rhana, for your comment. Yes, we all do need an angel in our life. Angel of all people would believe with you. Your support means so much and helps so much! Thank you. I count you as one of the angels in my life too! Hugs.
Nikki xx
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There is a song, that comes to mind when I read this. Uriah Heep's July Morning. Its a long song, not very great sounding in its first few notes to other people, when he begins to sing, you drift into a very magical state of mind.
Also.......ALSO..... I love Angel. Her connection with the fae ( in the Winterheart realm) is strong and connective. She emanates so much light, Carma says, that it's near blinding when she is in her fell form. (Full fae form that is)
-GASP- You don't believe in faeries and unicorns??? Are you mad!!!??? HAHAHA! I DO I DO! All of me does. Well, I do believe in the extinction of such a creature, who surely existed (the Unicorn) or if it did not, it aught to have existed. Of all the creatures in supposed myth and legend, I believe we connect with the unicorn the most. I know without a doubt, that Angel has seen most of the fae where I come from, (my supposed brainchild). So has Lux and Luc. -sly grin- Oh, Melly has as well. -does a faerie dance!!-
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@nonniekiss You and Angel have a very special connection. You write about the fae and she loves to go and visit them in our dream world. Angel is a true lover of fairies and unicorns and all magical creatures which she sees and experiences in our dreams. It is true that she is very light. She is close to angels and Pax, one of Mel's alters, just adores her. You are so sweet and you have such insight into my system. I thank you so much for your comment. You are so special and rare.
Hugs, Nikki xoxo