Evie - My Life as a Multiple #38
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Evie is one of Mel's alters. Mel is going to be co-present with me as I write because I have to listen to her speak because Evie is in her system and I can only access her through Mel. If Mel is present in the body, then she can and does use her alters to help her accomplish our daily tasks. For instance today we needed to give Jesse an injection of medicine for his MS. Mel took control of the body and allowed Pax to come out to give the injection because Pax is used for medical tasks.
Evie is a young alter. Mel says Evie was created out of a crisis situation. Mel needed to marry our ex in order to get out of her home. Her crisis came because she did not love our ex but she was being abused in her home. We went to our therapist at the time who was a French psychologist and who had tried to get us out of our home. The therapist did not feel the marriage was a good idea but Mel could not stand to live in her home any longer. Evie came out of that crisis to love him and allow the marriage to go forth.
Evie is childlike and very loving. She loves and cherishes animals. She is especially close to cats and would own as many as she could if her family allowed it. Currently Evie wants a teacup chihuahua she saw. Jesse says no more animals. So Evie is sad. Evie is good at games. She loves to be competitive. But she hates to lose and is a terrible loser. Evie is needed to express love at times. She loves everyone and thus when she is out, people feel very loved and cherished. Evie was instrumental in loving the four foster children Mel adopted. They were cherished by this childlike and funny young girl.
This blog helps me understand myself and helps me understand who made crucial decisions in our life. I now understand how we managed to get married to a man we didn't love because the decision was made by a child not by an adult. Evie is around 17 and she stays that age. Many of my alters do not age. Some have grown up from their ages of 5 or 6 to the age of 14 but others have not aged at all and do not grow and learn. This can be a problem when a clearly mature woman begins functioning as a child. My daughter, Missy, is often frustrated by this. I come back to the body and hear her saying, "I know I told this to one of your people!" Then I have to sift through all my alters and find out who spoke to Missy and perhaps even gave their consent to do something.
For instance, recently the boys bought a car. Missy thought she was speaking to me but the boys wanted the car and so they let her think that to get the car. They negotiated an amazing deal but still it was wrong of them not to identify themselves. Jesse can just tell who is out. Missy is learning more about who does what function so she can know who she is speaking to. Even after all these years, she is still learning about us all.
Thank you for reading, sweet reader. It means so much to us. You mean so much to us. We pray for all our readers and ask for you to have peace and for God to bless you and help those of you who have health problems and chronic pain. So know you are important to us. Thank you for your comments and hearts on our blog. We haven't been sleeping again so we seem to be more active on Urstyle in the middle of the night. Thank you for being you and so sweet and supportive to us all.
Hugs and love, Nikki xoxo
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Beautiful set and blog, Darling xoxo I had no idea it was Evie that wanted the little dog. I'm sorry if I made her sad. This is an especially informative entry. I love you, all of you.
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You've both (you and Jesse) been on my mind quite a bit lately because you've both been rather quiet, and I've been wondering how you were doing. I saw that you've been up more late at night. I hope you're doing okay. Sending you much affection and hugs....
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Sweet Evie so young and didn't know not to go forward with the marriage, when young we think we have all the answers, sadly life doesn't work that way. Sorry you can't sleep. me too, some times I am up at night, sometimes I sleep. Hope the injections are helping Jesse, my sister in-law has MS also, was on injections also. I guess sweetie some of these alters are a blessing, they each bring talents and help you get through life, hopefully the unpleasant alters stay quiet and mostly hidden. Sending hugs and blessings to you, Jesse, and Missy!
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@darkprince I know, darling! I didn't know half of this stuff either. I mean, I may have known it but I didn't put all the pieces together until Mel spelled it out for me. These blogs really help me. I should re-read them all. You may have made Evie sad but I think she knows you love her. You just don't want more animals. I will ask Mel to help her understand. Mel isn't as soft with her alters as I am with mine. I love you, darling.
Love, Nikki xoxo
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@gypsy-jo Jo, your comment meant so much to me. Just thinking you care enough to worry and notice that I've been up late is so sweet, and so thoughtful. It touches my heart in a very dear way. Thank you for being you and thinking about me. It means so much to me. It's been hard to sleep but I'm working through some things with my alters and with Mel. I'm sure we will get through it. In the mean time, your support means so much to us all.
Hugs and love, Nikki
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@sjlew Thank you, sweet one! Jesse and I appreciate you and your caring so much! Jesse has been going through a very rough time with his MS. He was in a pain flare that lasted months. Finally, he stopped being able to walk again without the use of his walker. We had to make an emergency appointment with his doctor who put him on an 8-day injection of a very strong medicine to stop the flare. It has helped us and Jesse is able to walk again on his own. He can't walk far but he can get around the house. MS is a terrible disease and people don't notice how much suffering the person with MS is going through. I'm so sorry your sister has it. She's lucky to have you in her life. As for Evie, yes she was young and did have to make some hard decisions but we got through it and other alters came out to help her through the horrible marriage. You are so dear to care about us and it means the world to me. It really does. You have such a big heart and that's why you are so dear to so many of us here on Urstyle. I'm sorry for your own pain that probably keeps you up at night. I pray for you and hope life is treating you good. Sending blessings and hope your way too!
Hugs and love, Nikki xoxo
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@surfergirl3915 Oh sweetie, life is so hard. Hope Jesse is feeling less pain and getting stronger, it is an awful disease. Sending you both love and blessings, many, many hugs!
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Great blog! Sorry I haven't been around, not doing too good. Tell Jesse I'm praying for you both! Talk as soon as I can. Love and Hugs, Rhana
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@rboowybe Rhana, I'm so sorry to hear you aren't doing well. I pray for you throughout the day as you come to my mind and hope that you have found some relief! Please know you are close to my heart and in my prayers!
Hugs and love, Nikki xoxo