LIFE AS A MULTIPLE #3
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It is morning. As the clouds of sleep dissipate, we realize we have survived another day. It is dark outside so it must be the middle of the night or early morning. Angel has awakened the body but she won't get us out of bed. That will take me or one of the other older alters. Angel regulates sleep which is problematic because she doesn't particularly like sleep. But she has to put the body to sleep and she has to wake the body up in the morning. But she usually wakes us up at night. It's hypervigilence. Angel is always on the alert for danger.
So, I wake up and in my mind are so many voices, talking. I listen carefully because this is where I find out if anyone is upset or if there are problems. I find out who is unhappy and why. Sometimes alters argue or fight. I have to resolve the issues. Sometimes they are sad and this can be dangerous depending on who is sad. The saddest alters rarely come out now and this is good because they cannot be comforted and some could possibly hurt the body so we like to keep them calm and sleeping inside.
It's 3:44 am. So, I guess I have been awakened to go on Urstyle and let someone create and speak. Today it was Ame. Strangely enough, Ame is a French girl who speaks French and has a French accent. She loves Paris although we have never been there. I know how she was created but why she speaks French has always been a mystery to me. Maybe one day she will tell me. Ame has always been the one to come out and fight our battles so i am wondering why she is out this morning. Ame is happy now and in love and I actually rarely see her anymore or hear her. But today she has come out to make a set on the new profile I created.
So, now two hours have passed and I am hoping to convince Angel to go back to sleep for an hour or so before we have to get up to help with our littlest daughter. I'm not sure if sleep will come so I decided to blog today and see if writing helps me get a clearer picture of what is going on in the body.
It appears that many feel creative. This is good I think. I'm hoping this outlet to create will help them to settle down. You can see their creations on @Houseofstone if anyone is interested. I'm always surprised at how different all the creations are.
Well, back to sleep for a little bit now, I hope.
Nikki
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Beautiful writing, Darling.
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The sets are quite different...I have quite different sets too. I can be very moody and it shows in my sets.
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@darkprince Your support is the reason I can go on, darling! I love you!
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@maisondeforgeron Your sets are amazing!! Some are so intricate and beautiful, I have no idea how you did it! Thank you for your comment!
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Amazing sets! Can I ask you how many children you have and how old they are? I only have one son and he's 26.
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Yes sweetie, houseof stone is different, more intense by my quick view. I will follow houseof stone too, which ever one is out at the moment, is very talented. My sets bounce around too. Do to my brain trauma my sets could be very ''dark'' I hide that away, I use goofy humor, my sets are rather generic, I am not artistic, but have fun, you have fun to sweetie!
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@rboowybe I have five children that are my own. My oldest is my daughter, Missy, 43. Then I have Amanda, who is 27, Madison, who is 24, Brenden, who is 22 and in the Air Force, and Jennifer, who is 19. Jesse, my One, has a daughter that we are raising, Eliana, who is 7. I have two grandchildren, both boys, Dylan, who is 25 and Michael who is 24. Lots of other foster children in various ages who have come and gone throughout my life. Thank you for asking.
Nikki xx
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@sjlew On @Houseofstone everyone signs their sets. If you look somewhere on the set, you will see the name. I asked them to do that so I would know who is making the art as I read their art sets for problems and to see how they are feeling. Thank you for following them. And I love your sets!!! I think you are very creative and your sets are very beautiful, whether dark or light. Mostly I find your sets to be light and happy and even funny sometimes!
Nikki xx
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Wonderful sets, and I like that you signed all of them, like, who created this or that set, so we know. Thank you for sharing your post! Big hugs to you!
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@asia-12 I make my alters sign their sets so I know who made them. It's often where I find out what's going on with the system. Thank you for your comment!!
Hugs, Nikki xx